22 January 2023

John 12:25 and Donald Trump

He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal--
John 12:25.

I can't think of any recent public figure who loves his life more than Donald Trump.  His entire life has been about stealing enough money to *live deliciously,* as the Bible terms it (Revelation 18:7).

He would destroy anybody or anything to keep his soft clothes and King's houses.  In this regard, he inverts Caiaphas' prophecy:

It is expedient for us, that one man should die for the people, and that the whole nation perish not.

Trump is willing that a whole nation should perish for one man: himself.  That is the measure of how much he loves his delicious life.

Now that his delicious life is in jeopardy, does he calculate the wages of sin his soft life has cost?  

Does he repent like Nebuchadnezzar?


The best thing for Trump would be if he were to be beaten with many stripes or lashed with a cane until he came to senses and begged God for mercy for the sake of Christ.  This won't happen.  He will run out the clock of his delicious life with legal ploys funded by his gullible followers.

And then he will die in his sin.

20 January 2023

The Baptist According to Luke and John

 Just asking:

Is there any more pitiable figure in human history than John the Baptist?

His life’s labor was to prepare the way for the Lord.  And by all the gospel accounts, he did it admirably.  And yet. . .

. . .He ended up sentenced to death, and plagued by doubt. That is. . .

. . .If one believes the account in the gospel of Luke.  In fact, if Luke is accurate, one could well ask, did the Baptist die, as American self-proclaimed Christians like to term it, *unsaved?*

Luke would have us believe the Baptist, plagued by doubt, sends 2 of his disciples to ask Jesus if He is the One.  This is exceedingly odd, because. . .

Luke’s infancy narrative tells us Jesus and the Baptist had maternal figures who were related, and that both their births were miraculous, and that the maternal figures in their lives knew before their births of their exact relationship to each other, that of messenger in service of Savior.  

Shouldn’t the Baptist have grown up with absolute certainty about his *Cousin?*  Mary and Elizabeth, the maternal figures of Jesus and the Baptist, were relatives, and met before the births and discussed these matters, and Luke states the Baptist knew *in the womb* that Jesus was the One.  And yet. . .

. . .Luke would have us believe, at the end of his life the Baptist doubted, sent out disciples to question Jesus, which seemingly irked the Lord, for He replied “blessed is he, whosoever shall not be offended in Me.”

Jesus later added that he who is least in the Kingdom of God is greater than the Baptist.  It would not be unreasonable to infer then that the Baptist is outside the Kingdom of God.  At any rate. . .

. . .for this reason we say no one is more pitiable than the Baptist. . .he devoted his life's labor to preparing the way for Christ, and yet ended his life on death row, unsure if he had prepared the way for the right One. . .IF Luke’s account is true.

On the other hand. . .

. . .the gospel of John records no such doubt on the part of the Baptist.  In fact, in John’s gospel, unlike Luke’s, the Baptist has no idea who Jesus is until he sees the Holy Spirit descend upon Jesus, a confirming sign given to the Baptist by God, at which time the Baptist proclaims with absolute certainty Jesus is the Lamb of God.  He never wavers or doubts, and consoles his own disciples who see the ministry of Jesus grow, and his ministry shrink, by stating He must increase, I must decrease.  Not a shred of doubt is ever hinted at in the gospel of John.  So. . .

. . .for the sake of the Baptist, let us hope John's account is the more accurate.

14 December 2022

Matthew 5:14-16

Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid. Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.

I’ve been reading the New Testament for over forty years.  This saying of Jesus is recorded, variously, in the gospels of Matthew, Mark and Luke.  I have probably read this saying at least one hundred times. . .

And every time I read it, my conscience is seared. . .

I have had the Light of Jesus’ Gospel for over forty years. . .but it has not shined before men.  

I have not hid the light 100% of the time.  But certainly I have hid it more than 99% of the time.  More than 99.5% of the time.  

I think of all the people I have been acquainted with over the decades.  The vast, vast majority of them never knew I was an admirer of Jesus, and that I esteemed His gospel above all else.

Every time I read the saying of Jesus presented above, my conscience is seared as I admit how little I have displayed it.  

It’s not that I would be ashamed if people knew I was a Jesus person, or that I was afraid people would think less of me if they knew I was a Jesus person.  I don’t care what people think about me. . .  

I wish it were that I was ashamed or fearful.  It wouldn’t be more excusable, because it can’t be excused.  But it would be more comprehensible. . .

For the plain truth is incomprehensible: I have the gospel of the Savior, and almost all the time I do nothing with it.  I live as if there is no Kingdom of God.  I live exactly as the people who are ignorant of the gospel of Jesus live. 

I ask myself: why is this?  I don’t have an answer.  I can say that I don’t care enough about other people to illuminate them with the gospel of Jesus, and this is certainly true, but I can’t answer why I don’t care enough about them.  Why am I reasonably content to just pass the time here waiting to die as if there is no Kingdom of God, as if there is no other way to live than the way unbelievers live?  The way they live is not the right way to live, of that I have no doubt.  The world goes about everything the wrong way, of that I have no doubt.  And yet, as I said, I am reasonably content to go along, anyway.

And so when I read the saying above from Jesus, and must acknowledge the power and splendor of the gospel, and yet I can't be bothered about it, my conscience is seared as I contemplate the extraordinary labor Jesus undertook to bring His gospel to the world. 

I can only hope this confession serves as an introduction to the gospel of Jesus to any who pass here. . .

15 November 2022


I don’t know when it started. It’s been a couple months at least. Probably longer.

I just can’t stand looking at peoples’ faces, anymore. It’s painful. It really is. Just a glance at somebody makes me ill. Something toxic there. I hate to say it because it will seem like I think I am better than everyone, which is the furthest thing from the truth.  I can’t stand to look at my own face.  When I see my own face, I automatically bark fuck you, motherfucker! or fucking idiot!

 When I look at a face I see the. . .wrongness.  The misuse.  The abuse of their own being.

No.  No.  It’s not really their own being.

It’s the abuse of their purpose. . .their design. . .their blood.

On the other hand, I don’t mind looking at small children. Toddlers. I feel tremendous sympathy. I feel so sorry for them. Look at them. Wobbling around this world. Most of them smiling, waving at strangers. They don’t know they’ve been set on the path to Hell. This life will be a hell, and then most of them will conclude in Hell.  I could cry, I feel so sorry for them, wobbling around this world.

25 May 2022

Uvalde: The Simple Answer

Here we are. . .again.

This ain't a complicated issue, people.  Don't be fooled by wicked ideologues (on the right or left) who try to score political touchdowns off the dead bodies of children.

If you stand Salvador Ramos next to a stack of 100 machine guns, and he is content with his life, he won't pick one up and shoot up an elementary school.

This ain't about gun control. . .

It ain't even about *mental health*. . .

It's about quality of life. . .

It's about the intent of life. . .

We are herded from birth into anti-life world.  If we have faith in Christ, we call it an anti-Christ world.

It's a purely material existence that can have no lasting value for a biological creature. . .

Most people deal with the shabby quality of their life by seeking escape in alcohol, narcotics, sex, domestic violence, gambling or any of the other Western *recreations.*

An increasing number are now moving beyond domestic violence to community violence. . .or maybe it's not an increasing number, who knows?  It doesn't matter.  

The issue of community violence can be solved by:

Removing guns,


Improving the quality of Western life by cutting out its materialistic core.

Neither will be done.  Right wingers are too indoctrinated into the faith of the 2nd Amendment to give up their ridiculously unnecessary guns (what the fuck does a 21st century human being need a gun for?), and both right and left wingers worship mammon.

Life is cheap, anyway.  Look how undervalued it is in Ukraine, where it counts less than a cloth flag.

Don't act like Uvalde is a tragedy if you accept as a necessity abortion or war.  

You can't choose either a little life or a little death.

Lastly, Salvador Ramos had no *mental health* issues.  The quality of life in the Western world is awful.  To sit and stare at a smartphone all day and eat Chipotle for dinner is a more a sign of poor mental health than shooting a school.  Shooting a school is the act of a soul on its last nerve in an insane world.

16 May 2022

Payton Gendron, Victim

A teenage white supremacist who murdered 10 people at a Buffalo supermarket threatened to shoot a classmate at his high school graduation last year. Officials at the Susquehanna Valley High School brought in New York State Police to investigate Payton Gendron, 18, of Conklin, NY, in June of 2021 after he made statements that he would shoot fellow students. A year later he ended up shooting 13 people - 10 of them fatally - during an attack motivated by his hatred for black people at a Top Market supermarket in Buffalo. A school official reported that this very troubled young man had made statements indicating that he wanted to do a shooting, either at a graduation ceremony, or sometime after.  After police looked into the account, Gendron was referred for mental health evaluation and counseling.

Gendron is one of four boys born to Paul and Pamela Gendron, two civil engineers with the state who live in Conklin, NY, three and half hours south of Buffalo. Paul coached his kids in the town soccer league and at least one neighbor found him 'strange.' His mother appeared conceited, locals said. 'To be honest, the mother was kind of snooty,' a local parent who asked not to be named said. 'Like she was better than everyone else. The father was strange. Like when you meet someone and they just seem off.'

Another shooting. . .

The reaction to these shootings is always the same. . .the same tiresome rush to blame *the other side.*

This time, since the shooter is white, the reaction is devoted to blaming Tucker Carlson's rants and Lauren Boebert's Christmas card.  It's the same after every shooting: juvenile ideological score settling.

So tiresome. . .

So tiresome. . .

Look, even if Gendron had ingested and then adopted Carlson's idiotic rantings, at a certain age the individual becomes responsible for the trash he allows to pollute his psychospace.  Gendron is of that age. . .old enough to willfully deceive himself.

Whatever source for his racial angst, he choose to make racialism his creed.  Living in America, he cannot have failed to have heard the name Jesus, and thus he either refused to study Matthew, Mark, Luke and John, or he read and rejected them.  Whichever, he bears responsibility for rejecting the gospel for the moronic manifestos of racial mischief makers.

[And anyway, racialism seems rather the excuse to kill, than the reason to kill, since he had earlier threatened a school shooting in his neary-all white hometown.]

If any external actors can be assigned the sin of omission for Gendron's actions, it must be his parents, for they clearly failed the test of Proverbs 22:6. . .

But instead of making a second agent guilty, and smearing *the other side,* which again has now become so predictable and tiresome, let us show how there is no *other side,* there is only one side.

Please, do you really believe Gendron killed 10 people because he doesn't like black folk?  That's as far as it goes?  

Whether a white kills a black or a black kills a white, or an Arab kills a Jew or a Jew kills an Arab, or an incel kills a girl, or whoever kills whoever, the killer does so for the same reason:

The killer believes he is the victim.

The victim believes he’s under attack, and thus believes when he reacts with Satanic violence he’s acting in self-defense, and is therefore innocent.

Our friend Payton Gendron wasn't under attack from black folk.  He had to drive hundreds of miles to find enough to kill to calm his nerves.

Every human being, including Adam and Eve, was brought out of nothing and thrown into this world. . .but Adam and Eve were brought into a world of perfect harmony, they lived free of care. . .how must they have shined, compared to the anxious wrecks who walk the earth today?. . .but Adam and Eve victimized all who followed when they rejected their Easy Living for the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.  They were banished from harmony, and every one of us who followed, follows them into this world of chaos.  It's impossible to live in this world.  That is the lesson of history.

Every person who followed rightly believes himself a victim.  Even those who chance into material favor believe they are victims.  Look at Donald Trump.  Over and over, he paints himself the victim.

If Payton Gendron could live, he wouldn't kill black people.  He killed black people because he couldn't live.  It was impossible for him, or anybody else, to live in this world.  Black folk are merely the scapegoat.  Without black folk to blame, Gendron has no hope.  How can he live if he admits life is impossible?  So he adopts one of the fairy tales of racialism: without black folk, I can live.

No person can live in this world, which is out of order, but to admit that means the only answer is to live in God's world. . .but the door to that world is Jesus.  No other way into it.  

Payton Gendron didn't want that. He passed over Jesus, the door to life, and instead choose a retarded racialism.

Every person is a victim of Adam and Eve, and in that, there is some pity.  Whether or not that pity withers when we see Gendron pass over God's remedy for an assanine rememdy of his own depends upon our willingless to believe Gendron passed over Christ and choose negrocide from *Free Will.*

In any event, Tucker Carlson is not the problem.  The problem is the impossibility of living outside the Kingdom of God.